prayer

अर्ज़ सुनो मैं हारी हुई  हूँ ,जग के पालन हारे।
रह -रह कर मन डर  जाता है ,राह न  सूझे  काही।

आयी तेरे द्वारे भगवन ,न्याय  तेरा  परखने।
हक़ है  इतना मेरा तुमपर ,लाज  रखो मेरी,साईं।

सही गलत की क्या परिभाषा मेरी समझ न आई।
तुम बिन मेरा कौन सहारा , आज प्रकटो मेरे भाई।

कुरक्षेत्र बना मेरा जीवन , कुछ और न सूझे उपाय।
काश बहु बल की होती लड़ाई, पर  मन ने है चोंट खाई।

सारथि बन मेरे जीवन का कर उधार मेरे साईं
एक युद्ध अर्जुन ने लड़ा था , आज मेरी बारी है आई।

पार्थ  बना लो मुझको अपना,शरणागत मैं तेरे कन्हाई।
तुझ बिन मेरा कौन सहारा , आज प्रकट मेरे भाई।

सो जा पुन्नू

June 8, 2012 at 11:13pm

सो जा पुन्नू रानी मेरी , निंदिया तुझे बुलाये,

स्वप्नों  की गाडी वोह तेरे लिये ही ठहराये ...

चन्दा निकला तारे निकले , सब हैं तुझे सुलाए ,

झींगुर भी अपनी ताल पर देख है डमरू बजाये  ...

सो जा पुन्नू रानी मेरी , यह सब तुझे  सुलाए ,

सपनों की गाडी वोह तेरे लिये ही ठहराय  ...

आज होगा स्वपन सलोना , मुझको हैं बतलाए , 

 यूंही नहीं पुन्नू तुझको लोरी रही सुनाये ....

सो जा पुन्नू रानी मेरी , निंदिया तुझे बुलाये ,

सपनो की गाडी वोह तेरे लिये ही ठहराए  ....

keep holding on as long as u know u are right

June 28, 2012 at 11:21am

This too shall pass,

as nothing is permanent

have faith in heart...

I know I am right..

drawing strength from that

these winds are temporary

this tornando wont last..

I know I shudder

dreading what time might unfold..

but I know holding on to truth 

has always been a fight..

its not easy as it sounds..

the waves of uncertainity,

keep hitting it all round..

however this too shall pass

This storm wont last..

each time I think I'm gonna quit

I step back..and hold myself

hanging in there,clasping on to truth.. 

beleiving all is temporary is all that counts..

nothing is permanent 

so this too wont last.. 

To say goodbye with ease

December 9, 2013 at 12:35pm

Live my life and see how it feels,

Constant battle with time is no breeze.

Holding on to my beliefs,

Sometimes I wonder how good are these?

I'm not shattered totally, I'm pleased.

Even though I can't see it yet,

There is light at the end of this tunnel I beleive.

It may not be what I would have perceived,

But who knows what is right and wrong in times like these.

I will come out as a winner unattached,

Bruised and scarred though my core would be.

I still want to look up at stars and beleive,

Beleive in myself and say goodbye with ease.

I shall beam back.

Jan 20th 2014

Fire in my heart,

has burnt away my wings..

No matter how much I try,

there is nothing more I can give..

There is nothing left,

of the wealth, I once in abundance had..

I live on scarce feed of past memories.

There are few who look up to me still,

I feel sad as I am empty handed.

A lot of hurt has made me who I am

Not blaming others, my investment went wrong.

Emptiness I can feel inside,

 has dried once fertile soil..

As barren land my heart still beats...

however ripped away of hope and peace.

Time has instilled pain and fear,

 I stand clueless and nowhere to go

Still holding on to the remnants

But I shall beam back so says my perseverance.

हमे नहीं पाओगे

अबके जब बुलाओगे, तो हम ना लौटेंगें 

आँसू जो बहाओगे, तो हम ना पोंछेंगे। 

ना दर्द है , ना रंजिश कोई, रही बाकी ,

जो टीस सुलगती थी, वोह अब ना रही वैसी । 

राख हुए रिश्ते को  किस हक़ से सेहलाओगे ?

अब के जो पलटे तो हमें नहीं पाओगे।

टूटे कांच की तस्वीर बस जोड़ते नज़र आओगे, 

आज़ाद होकर भी खुद को कैद में तुम पाओगे। 

ज़िन्दगी को तलाशते तुम ज़रुर आओगे,
चाह कर भी तुम मुझ तक पर पहुंच  नहीं पाओगे।

अबके जो लौटे तो हमे  नहीं पाओगे ,
सिर्फ आँखों में आंसू और दिल भोज लिये रह जाओगे

अबके जो लौटे तो हमे नहीं पाओगे।


--------- हविषा करिहलू 

It is healing I suppose

It bleeds sometimes but not like constantly before.
Pain is overcome by numbness but its still a little sore.

I see deep red wound but the wound is drying up though.
It still bleeds sometimes but not every time like before..

I can see realization seeping, piercing my inner core.
I want to speed up the process but it takes its own sweet time to repair..

The battle of heart and mind has at least come to a halt
Heart has finally started accepting what mind had been telling it since way back

It feels like death, death of something/someone very close
It takes time to gather pieces and then pick remnants of broken hope

Time is a healer I hear all say..
All I wish it worked faster so that all this is a passe and it hurts no more.

I know not

I know not what strength people are talking about,
All I know is there is no other option but to carry on.

I know not what they mean by good gets good,
All I know is I'm in a rut and it definitely does not feel good.

I know not when they say there is good in everything,
All I know is this has only given me problems since I know it.

I know not when they say you will find happiness,
All I know is its just a mythical concept one builds hope on it.

I am tired, I am exhausted, I want to unload.
take a little break from this chaos galore

But there is no breather no time you see,
This chase, this race, is not letting me be.

I know not where and when all this is going to end.
I hope that it does before my journey ends.

आशिक़

हम वो आशिक़ हैं जो बेइंतिहां प्यार कर बैठै,

दिल को कांटो के जंगल में यूं फसा बैठे 

ख्ता उनकी नहीं, मेरी है, है क़बूल मुझे,  

बेकद्र पर बिना सोंचे यूं जाँ लुटा बैठे .

इश्क़, मुहबब्त, प्यार, यार अंधा होता है ,

उसकी जीती झागती मिसाल वो हमे बना बैठे 

खुदी से ज़्यादा ऐतबार, बेवज़ा हम यार कर बैठे

जाने क्यूं, इंसान को खुदा का मान दे बैठे 

हम वो आशिक़ हैं जो बेइंतिहां प्यार कर बैठै,

दिल को कांटो के जंगल में यूं फसा बैठे